Sunday, December 23, 2007
♂ 2007 reviews
I wonder if I made the right decision, quitting the lab just like that... although now I'm pretty well aware of the consequences. I've sent messages to tons of people, asking them if they could supervise me, none accepted, after looking at my previous records. You can safely say that I've been blacklisted by the scientific community, damage had been done and I'm not sure if they can be repaired.
2007 had been a rough year for me, I was depressed for much of the year, especially during the winter periods. I'm not really sure why. There were so many things that I was thinking about, so many dilemmas I faced, that I was utterly confused and distraught. In the end, none of them were solved, I just ran, far away from my problems. The harder I ran, the heavier the burdens on my shoulder became. People say when you have a weight on your shoulder, you should let it go and walk on. I let go of my burden, and now, I wonder if I should've let them go in the 1st place. Perhaps I gave out too soon. I probably could have gone on and worked them out. However, I didn't, I ran away from them. In that respect, I'm a failure.
Now, I'm trying to start a new chapter in my life. I took a masters course in education, maybe I have a chance in teaching. I hope I'll be strong and persistent enough to walk on this path. Let's see what's gonna happen.
10:29 PM
