Monday, May 29, 2006
♂ what does it mean to fail??
Science is hard.. Lots of failed experiments here and there... Up til now.. I haven't got any real results yet.. Things always seem to screw up somewhere... At first, there were problems with the immuno... Then, there's the problem with the analysis.. and there's also this big problem with the rats losing their implants.. I am so screwed... FAIL FAIL FAIL!! so many FAILED experiments!!!
Kinda stressed out now.. I'm worried that by the end of the year I won't have anything to write about but a series of failed experiments here and there. I guess I know what she was telling me about years ago...
There are 2 kinds of successful people..
1. Talented people who do things once and instantly get good results.
2. Hard-working people who do things over and over again and finally getting good results.
What differentiates them is that.. Talented people dun always have determination.. they may be so carried away with their good luck and talents that once they fail.. they start to fall apart.. While hard-working people.. are so accustomed to failing.. that trying another one doesnt hurt anymore..
I am definitely noy the talented one.. I have the luck of one who falls of a ladder, stomped by the ladder and tripped on the same ladder when i get up...
I wonder.. can i keep getting up, despite the pain??
11:54 PM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
♂ just got my lit review back
I just got my lit review back... the marks are quite alright.. 3.88/5... But.. the comments that the examiners left me... harsh... I guess they are being too kind to give me 3.88/5 given all the stupid mistakes that I did... I think I deserve much less than that... Anyway... when I passed up the review.. I knew it was crap.. and honestly.. I can't make it better... there was no way for me to make it better... I guess that "crap" is the best that I could do...
On another thing... I'm having problems counting the synaptophysin marked puncta... The ImageJ program doesn't do a really good job in counting them... They told me that there is another new program.. but it's not "functional" yet... So I just gotta wait... Another problem with the synaptophysin... it seems that I am not going to be able to separate and group the synapses based on size.. and they are quite uniformly distributed...
Thankfully, my group leader mentioned about different types VGLUT being employed by the Cortex and the Deep Cerebellar Nuclei... So.. I'm gonna try to do immuno on some of these today... hopefully it works... though I doubt it will.. things are bound to screw up somewhere...
1:02 PM
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
♂ how 2 warring nations can be v immature...
Technically, the South and North Korea is still at war with one another.. At their borders, there's this demilitarized zone with a width of 4km that extends throughout the korean peninsula and dividing it in half.
Within this demilitarized zone... there are 2 villages... one owned by the north (Gijeong-dong).. the other by the south (Taesong-dong).. Here's a part of a wikipedia article about the 2 villages:
In the past, North Korean propaganda was sent out by loudspeaker across to Taesong-dong for as much as 20 hours a day, and reciprocal pop music and South Korean exhortations blasted back. These broadcasts ceased by mutual agreement in 2004. During the 1980s, the South Korean government built a 100 metre (328 ft.) tall flagpole in Taesong-dong. The North Korean government responded by building a taller one - the tallest in the world at 160 metres (525 ft.). The North Korean flag at the top weighs around 270 kg (595 lbs.) when dry and must be taken down the instant it starts raining as the tower cannot support its weight when wet. Link LOL!
5:06 PM
Thursday, May 04, 2006
♂ feeling kinda shit...
Things are so shitty...
1. Project
I've finished the 3 weeks training stage on the 4 rats... did synaptophysin immuno on them... and the immuno was quite alright.. Problem is.. the sections are so crappy that I cant get any good picture of the injection sites...Most of the pictures I have now are pictures with BIG HOLES right in the middle of the injection sites... DAMN!! the processings that I did during the immunohistochemistry must have damaged those sections!!! What's worse... The sections are SO CRAPPY that I can't get about 60% of them mounted... So shitty... I hope I will be able to count the synaptophysin synaptic puncta... PRoblem is... some bloody kiasu person just booked the microscope for this week... next week and the week after!!! DAMNATION!!! Now, I am forced to worked AFTER HOURS... I sure hope that I can get nice pictures and good results with the synaptic puncta counts...
2. Faith
I guess I don't need to talk much about this... Currently, I think I've stopped believing in God... The reason I'm still sticking around is that I still wanna be a human.. and not gonna cut myself from society.. not just yet...
3. Warcraft...
I think I'm gonna be kicked out of the clan.. Seriously, I am one bloody stupid idiot... I've played DOTA for a long time.. and I do not improve... In fact, a noob that just started playing last month is already better than me... I am a disgrace...
I wanna do some work... I wanna be able to focus on my project... but with things getting this shitty.. I keep on giving myself excuses like if things turn out crappy anyway... why bother???
12:24 AM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
♂ maybe what i need are the touch and quality time of love
The Five Love Languages
My primary love languages are probably
Physical Touch and
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
| Physical Touch: | | 10 |
| Quality Time: | | 10 |
| Acts of Service: | | 6 |
| Words of Affirmation: | | 4 |
| Receiving Gifts: | | 0 |
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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
Take the quiz
5:04 PM
♂ hypocritical bullshit..
I'm thinking to quit all these church business... I'm so sick of all of it... I think if I go on with this.. I would just be living a life of lies.. All those songs that we sing at church... I don't feel connected to them anymore... I feel that they are just... words.. that mean nothing.. at least to me.... I do not care about God anymore.... and I honestly begin to doubt if He exists in the 1st place... I do not think that I can call myself a christian anymore..
I seriously can't go on living this hypocritical bullshit life...
1:02 PM
