Saturday, February 25, 2006
♂ new blog.. much simpler..
I just made this new blog today.. much simpler than before.. Compared to the previous one.. It works pretty well with mozilla firefox.. However, it still has problems with the links shortcut.. I'm too lazy to find out what's wrong.. maybe I'll do it tomorrow...
11:34 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006
♂ the sofa is now my bed...
For about a week, I've been sleeping on the sofa instead of my own bedroom. I'm not sure why... but I guess that's because when i sleep on the sofa... i tend to get less of that morning insomnia thingy i been having... Why?? I really don't know...
These past few days had been busy.. yeah.. i been busy with my honours project... Currently, there are so many techniques that I'm learning that I do not have time during the working hours to work on my literature review... After all those lab experiments... I was too brain-exhausted to read articles for my essay... I'm getting kinda worried.. i should get at least a draft ready a few days before the 25th of march which is when my supervisor will be leaving to europe... gotta push myself..
Thoughts on my mind.
You know, it takes a great amount of courage to be able to love someone without knowing if it will be returned.. that's what i think he's trying to teach me... unconditional love... Often, when we do good things to others, by instinct we expect them to do them same unto us... However, things aren't always that fair.. more often than not.. people don't pay back your kindness.. in fact.. they make use of it... and then... we are afraid to love.. we are afraid to be kind to others.. we are afraid.. that we will be used... but real love that He taught me.. aren't afraid.. Real Love is brave... courageous.. and willing to work for others despite uncertainty in its rewards... Real love... is when you love someone... and can continue to love that someone... even when they do not return it..
5:48 PM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
♂ very tiring day in lab
Today, I spent like... 8 hours in lab.. from 10 am to 6pm mounting slides... man... that is one really tiring job.. giving me neck and back pain... What's worse... I think the coverslips that I did was crap.. there were so many bubbles in them... If we can't see anything tomorrow.. then I have screwed up.. screwed up bad.. oh well.. i guess sometimes you gotta mess something up before you can do it right... by the way.. I didn't even have time to lunch... so... my belly was empty since morning until around 7 pm when i managed to have dinner with Ling shan at shanghai dumpling house... Food tastes exceptionally great when you're hungry you know...
Being busy sure has its advantages.. at least it managed to focus my mind on something.. other than that "thing" which i had been thinking almost every day... However, when the activities are over.. it's back... Which reminds me of a quote by my friend Nadia on her msn nickname.. "If you cant get someone out of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there." My question is whether this thing bothering me.. if it's supposed to be there... this person troubling my mind... am i supposed to be distressed?? then what can i do ??
9:59 PM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
♂ another curry day
This afternoon, after lunch and a couple of hours of counter strike... My friends and I thought of having an "cook-eat-together". The theme was Japanese food... so... I cooked my specialty.. Japanese curry.. err.. not really actually.. it was a dish that required no skill to cook.. you basically just need to buy the ingredients and the instant curry paste, then throw them all into a pot of boiling water... Jesse cooked a beef yakiniku thingy... and kong2x cooked tempura.. 3 chefs cooking for.. 10 people??
Kong2x also gave me this beer.. i think it's a belgian beer.. taste pretty good actually.. better than the australian local beers.. except james boag.. james boag is one good stuff... but i still prefer baccardi and midori than beers...
My mood for today been pretty good... during the day at least... however.. when i got home.. the depression starts kicking in... Now i'm feeling quite crap... i'm not really sure why... although i think i have a slight idea why... I'm wanting this thing that I know I can never have... but I still cant stop hoping that one day... I may have it.. that one day... I can be there...
11:33 PM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
♂ my leg hurts..
For the past 2 nights I've been sleeping on the sofa... That's because my pillow has gotten really really flat that they could not provide sufficient support anymore. Meanwhile, the sofa has this... "handle" part which I can use as a pillow substitute. Anyway... last night.. I sorta twisted some sort of muscle or tendon on my leg.. it was very painful.. but since I was really tired last night.. I just massaged it a little and drifted to sleep... Now it still kinda hurt.. when I try to walk.. but still manageable....
I just got back from dinner at this place called Ants Bistro near my place. I used to think that this place sells food made from ants.. I guess I thought wrong.. the food in this place was really good.. and there was no ants in them whatsoever. I would highly recommend for anyone to try its "minister chicken". Dinner was good.. and it was free... Haha.. thx Alga for treating us.. happy birthday.. anyway... during dinner I had my... alcohol..It was only a glass of muscato. I've been going on without alcohol for about... 5 days now.. since monday... I guess that's progress huh?
11:30 PM
♂ getting kinda worried..
I have a literature review due on april.. now.. I still haven't read any research paper throughly yet.. I have just skimmed through a few of them... Tomorrow I'm planning to read some of those papers in much greater detail and depth... Hopefully there'll be some good progress. My supervisor told me that in order to get a phd next year, I would most probably have to be able to release a paper this year. I hope I can get that paper... but in order to do so.. I have to concentrate a lot on my research.. which is to be done during my hours working in the lab.. which means that I must spend less time during those "working hours" doing readings and writing up reviews. That also means that I have to spend more time on my own doing those kinda stuff. I'm starting tomorrow.. and I hope all goes well.. especially my experiments.. so that I can get good data and results early.. proceed to other experiments and perhaps.. obtain enough information for a paper...
12:27 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
♂ valentine's day...
Today's valentine's day is really boring for me... Why?? because I'm single.. hahahah!!! you know... I feel kinda jealous looking at all those couples on the streets.. It sure feels nice to have someone by your side on this day of celebration for love... I guess I'll just have to be patient.. really patient..
10:29 PM
Monday, February 13, 2006
♂ test
testing post
10:49 PM
