Tuesday, April 11, 2006
♂ is it over?? no not yet!!
When I thought that it's over with her?? when I thought that I've moved on.. when I thought that I've managed to fall in love with someone else... All my thoughts were wrong...
I guess our dreams really determine what we really are... my dream last nite certainly did...
I dreamt that I was leaving melb.. and then while I was leaving my house ... going to grab a cab to the airport... She was there.. standing at the door... waiting for me... and I dunno how.. or why.. I held her hands and we walked together...
I dunno what this means... but instantly after that.. I woke up.. I just couldn't believe myself?? why did it had to be her??? Then I realized it.. no matter how much I tell myself that she's not my type... no matter how much I'm telling myself that we don't match.. No matter how much I tried to avoid her... No matter how much I tried to love someone else... Deep in my heart... it's still her that I want...
6:11 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
♂ not doing so good...
Last night, I was working on my lit review.. managed to finish the remaining 500 word by 10pm. After that, I was so dead tired.. went home and enjoy the evening..
Today, I read my whole lit review again.. and it's shit... It's really a piece of crap that talks about random stuff and doesnt get anywhere.. the contents are basically here and there and doesnt seem to come to a point... and I'm so brain dead to try fix it.. Anyway.. I sent this piece of junk to my supervisor. I hope he's able to give me some helpful comments... which I think he won't. Personally, I think that my lit review isn't even worth commenting on... It's just too... unreadable.. I think he'll just shove it back at me...
On another note... I was discussing with the research assistant who was gonna help me do the surgery tomorrow.. and things aren't going well.. The instrument that I usually use with my supervisor seems to be broken.. we haven't tested it.. cos I'm so bloody unorganised that I haven't made any micropipettes to test it on.. with the photos.. things aren;t turning good as well... the injections are crap that it's impossible to make any valid comparison... all the work since february... junk... can't get any real data from them...
CAN THINGS GET ANY WORSE!!!!!
5:53 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
♂ do i expect too much or am i doing too little?
Have you ever been in that situation where you wanna do something... but you simply just do not have the mood to do it? Take my case for an example, I managed to write about 2500 words on wednesday.. and I'd still need 500 more words to complete my lit review... the problem is.. I have no idea on what else to write in those 500 words.
Between that day... and now.. which is monday 1 am. I haven't added or read any single thing to make up for those remaining 500 words. Why?? bcos I simply just do not have the mood, I know I should do it.. try to finish it as soon as possible.. so that I can email it to my supervisor.. who's now in europe... but I simply do not have the mood.. I'm too lazy...
Do I expect too much?? that I have to finish this as soon as possible? It's due in 3 weeks anyway... or am I doing too little? Am I going behind??
12:39 AM
